tired

for the first time (or maybe 2nd or 3rd or ... )

after so many years studying outstation 

I'm "depressed" not because of "relationship problem"

I'm tired.

there are just too much things on my plates

have to submit 1.5k words of intro next week

class test is coming end of this month

lots of workshops in between

and...

lots of other things to sort out.. 

maybe it's not my destiny to get what i want

but once i have started, i will fight till the very end

"accomplish or do not begin"

amitabha please help me.