what's the point of working hard?

my next presentation will be on this coming Tuesday
and i still haven't really start working on it

i couldn't see the point of doing it other than just to fulfil my PRP log book
and to gain knowledge

what's the point of gaining knowledge?
i used to think that with knowledge, one will gain respect
it is great to be the best, to be the top

but, now... after thinking twice.. what's the point of being the best?
after all, there will always be someone better than you
and you will be replaced and forgotten
so, what's the point for working so hard??

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but then... why did i chose medical field at the first place?
why didn't i give up when i was very stress in university?
why did I hang on till now?
why??

i want to help others.
i want to serve the community.
i want to touch others heart.

every patient deserves an up to standard treatment.
everyone deserves a proper care.
so, if i am not competent, can I give what they deserve???

for my patients, i will keep improving.


may all be well and happy always.