Kiasi is a Chinese word (in Hokiean) which means fear to die whereas kiasu is also a Hokiean word which stands for fear to lose. A person is consider as kiasi and kiasu when he or she want to win in everything he or she involve. yes, we cannot deny that nobody wants to lose but one who is kiasi and kiasu will just concentrate on the result instead of the process. Some enjoy the process of doing something while some will just look at the result. The latter is consider as kaisu.
One who is kiasi or kiasu will suffer depression or more precisely will have higher stress level than ordinary people. Everything they do, they want to be number one and want to be perfect. This will indirectly increases their stress level as they will do over and over again on the same thing until it become perfect. Those who are kiasi and kiasu are very hard to feel enough with what they had achieved. We cannot deny that in this world full of competition, every second counts. Everyone is improving and it is hard to maintain on the top if you slow down a beat.
In addition, those kiasi and kiasu will have relatively less friends as they always want to win and they focus on the result rather than the process. They will chose to neglect their connection with their group members or coworker as for most of them this is not as important as the outcome. Furthermore, they will feel annoyed if their friends are ahead of them. This will make them hard to find a true friend as they do not pleased with their friends achievement. They like to mingle around with those who perform poorer than them or those he or she wins in certain aspect. This is hard for kiasi and kiasu people to find a friend in the same field with them.
Though we cannot deny that one who is kiasi and kiasu tends to be more enthusiasm than others and normally will perform better. The productivity might be high but the same goes to people who suffer from depression. Moreover, this will make the working environment tense and boring. It is hard to change from kiasi and kiasu, and if it does not bring problem to one daily life, change is not necessary.
"Enjoy your life when you are able to as life is short!"
Saturday, November 22, 2008
why am i so kiasi and kiasu???
Just after the release of my first ever external examination result, I understood the great philosophy that once my beloved mother taught me. with that relatively poor result, I realized that 'friends' will only be with you when you are on the hill, not when you are down deep in the ocean bed.
Soon after the release of my first external exam result, all my 'friends' just look down on me and some even ignored my present due to my poor performance. Those with good or acceptable result, they keep on celebrate over their triumph and totally ignored those who once their 'close friends'. Feeling down and shame over my result, I, alone sat at the corner of the class, and stopping my tears of disappointment from bursting. I felt very guilty over my playfulness and i was do not even border to prepare for that exam. Before that, i was full of confidence and felt that I had fully prepared. Eventually, the result shown the opposite was true. For the last few days of my schooling in primary, i spent lots of time to digest the great philosophy and of course to test and experience its reliability. I was walking alone at the school building that was newly built at the time, thinking over and over again why my 'friends' treat me totally different before and after the release of my result. At last, I have to admit that my mother was right on that point. Sadly, i had to face all the outcomes alone at school. Consequently, I turn my whole family members down.
On that 'big' day, when I was on the bus with my sister who is two years younger than me, i just lost of control over my emotion. When my sister keep on asking about my result, i just felt that she was teasing me in fact she was just think that my result was just unbelievable and of course unexpectedly bad and she want to confirm it. What I did was i gave her a slap on the bus in front of our friends and she just stunned there and i walked away angrily. Soon after that i regret over my action and she just forgave my.
When I reached home, I just let my tears out before my mother scold me over my poor performance. Surprisingly, my mother did not scold me which she used to be when my results are not up to standard. My dad who was away working return home just want to find out his playful son result. Of course, again i turned him down. On that day, there were lots of relatives called us, just want to know my performance after my elder sister good performance on that particular exam two years before. It is still fresh in my mind that whenever that phone rang on that day, my tears just burst out uncontrollably. My beloved parents have to answer all the call one by one while my heart being stabbed by the transparent knife each time the phone rang. My mom and my younger sister also cannot control over their tears and cried with me. I cried the hardest when i received my 'present' from my lovely elder sister and a letter which she wrote prior to the release of my result. In that letter, she told me that whatever my result is, she and our whole family members will still stay with me. Eventually this touched my broken heart and pleased it a bit. After a few days, my old friend at my previous primary school called me to asked for my result. At that time i calmed down. I wish that i will be better in the next external exam.
Before that, i was a boy full of confident on my academic as my result in the primary school was good and i had high expectation on my first ever external examination. As the saying goes, the higher the expectation, the deeper the disappointment. Commit suicide once came to my mind but my lovely elder sister who is just one year older than me keep on motivating me. My class teacher also consoled me by telling me not to give up and it was just a small and yet not important exam and i shall do better in future.
Since then, I seldom go to public places unless necessary scared of meeting relatives and friends who will ask about my poor performance. With this, i became kiasi and kiasu (fear to lose). What make thing worse is that i will not trust any of my friends easily as I will consider them as hypocrite. These has been hurting me deep in my heart until now. On the other hand, it makes me fight for everything I want and burn up my enthusiasm to be best of the best, and a head of the rest. I think i have become a perfectionist after that.
Soon after the release of my first external exam result, all my 'friends' just look down on me and some even ignored my present due to my poor performance. Those with good or acceptable result, they keep on celebrate over their triumph and totally ignored those who once their 'close friends'. Feeling down and shame over my result, I, alone sat at the corner of the class, and stopping my tears of disappointment from bursting. I felt very guilty over my playfulness and i was do not even border to prepare for that exam. Before that, i was full of confidence and felt that I had fully prepared. Eventually, the result shown the opposite was true. For the last few days of my schooling in primary, i spent lots of time to digest the great philosophy and of course to test and experience its reliability. I was walking alone at the school building that was newly built at the time, thinking over and over again why my 'friends' treat me totally different before and after the release of my result. At last, I have to admit that my mother was right on that point. Sadly, i had to face all the outcomes alone at school. Consequently, I turn my whole family members down.
On that 'big' day, when I was on the bus with my sister who is two years younger than me, i just lost of control over my emotion. When my sister keep on asking about my result, i just felt that she was teasing me in fact she was just think that my result was just unbelievable and of course unexpectedly bad and she want to confirm it. What I did was i gave her a slap on the bus in front of our friends and she just stunned there and i walked away angrily. Soon after that i regret over my action and she just forgave my.
When I reached home, I just let my tears out before my mother scold me over my poor performance. Surprisingly, my mother did not scold me which she used to be when my results are not up to standard. My dad who was away working return home just want to find out his playful son result. Of course, again i turned him down. On that day, there were lots of relatives called us, just want to know my performance after my elder sister good performance on that particular exam two years before. It is still fresh in my mind that whenever that phone rang on that day, my tears just burst out uncontrollably. My beloved parents have to answer all the call one by one while my heart being stabbed by the transparent knife each time the phone rang. My mom and my younger sister also cannot control over their tears and cried with me. I cried the hardest when i received my 'present' from my lovely elder sister and a letter which she wrote prior to the release of my result. In that letter, she told me that whatever my result is, she and our whole family members will still stay with me. Eventually this touched my broken heart and pleased it a bit. After a few days, my old friend at my previous primary school called me to asked for my result. At that time i calmed down. I wish that i will be better in the next external exam.
Before that, i was a boy full of confident on my academic as my result in the primary school was good and i had high expectation on my first ever external examination. As the saying goes, the higher the expectation, the deeper the disappointment. Commit suicide once came to my mind but my lovely elder sister who is just one year older than me keep on motivating me. My class teacher also consoled me by telling me not to give up and it was just a small and yet not important exam and i shall do better in future.
Since then, I seldom go to public places unless necessary scared of meeting relatives and friends who will ask about my poor performance. With this, i became kiasi and kiasu (fear to lose). What make thing worse is that i will not trust any of my friends easily as I will consider them as hypocrite. These has been hurting me deep in my heart until now. On the other hand, it makes me fight for everything I want and burn up my enthusiasm to be best of the best, and a head of the rest. I think i have become a perfectionist after that.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Book
Princess is a novel which mainly about the lives of women at part of the Earth. The book describes how women in Saudi Arab being tortured and not to mention humiliated by men. There, the social level of man is far higher than that of woman. Father or the eldest son of a family will be the head of the family. They have the right to do any decision for the women including the right to choose their future husband. May daughters like their future husbands or not, they have to follow and no word against the order is allowed. Eventually, some of the women who are in their early teenage have to marry a middle age man and what make thing worse is they might become their third or forth wife (polygamy is allowed, in some religion, for those who are able to support the whole family and also are able to spent his time equally for all the wives). Women are being blame for men misbehavior and their explanation is not accepted. Some mother even have to follow their sons instruction.
Ions Treatment...
Yesterday, i went to a seminar about ions treatment. According to the person in charge, undergo this treatment you will feel better in the sense that you will be more energetic and headache, stomachache and so on can be cured or at least be ceased.
Some of the customers claimed that their pain which they have been suffering for decades ceased after undergo two weeks of that ions treatment. In addition, there are lots of hand-written posters state that how people feel better after that treatment. Some said that they no longer have insomnia and some claimed that their back pain stop.
However, the 'lecturer' just keep on giving information on how to use that machine instead of how it functioning. She said that using that machine it will help us to do treatment to our organs automatically and most interestingly is that the machine will carry out treatment for specific organ according to time throughout the day. Customers are allowed to try the machine daily for around 20 minutes per day and of course free of charge. We, as customers, just need to sit on the electrical chairs. We are not allowed to touch each other while undergo that treatment. Without knowing that, I touched my mom and we got 'electric shock', that voltage was high and it was deadly painful.
What made me curious is that how with using such a simple but expensive machine, the decease that we suffer for years can be cured just like that? What it machine functioning actually? and what are the side-effects of that magic machine?
Some of the customers claimed that their pain which they have been suffering for decades ceased after undergo two weeks of that ions treatment. In addition, there are lots of hand-written posters state that how people feel better after that treatment. Some said that they no longer have insomnia and some claimed that their back pain stop.
However, the 'lecturer' just keep on giving information on how to use that machine instead of how it functioning. She said that using that machine it will help us to do treatment to our organs automatically and most interestingly is that the machine will carry out treatment for specific organ according to time throughout the day. Customers are allowed to try the machine daily for around 20 minutes per day and of course free of charge. We, as customers, just need to sit on the electrical chairs. We are not allowed to touch each other while undergo that treatment. Without knowing that, I touched my mom and we got 'electric shock', that voltage was high and it was deadly painful.
What made me curious is that how with using such a simple but expensive machine, the decease that we suffer for years can be cured just like that? What it machine functioning actually? and what are the side-effects of that magic machine?
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
What is the Thing that we really cannot live without it?
When I was first introduced to this topic the first thing that comes to my mind is FAMILY. Well, some might say that friend is the most significant thing in this planet while the other might think that wealth takes bigger part of their life. There are also people who have the opinion that health should come first after all. However, I strongly believe that family should top the list base on they are those who understand us the most, they will never betray us and they will share with us all the ups and downs in our lives. Before dive in into the topic, I would like to explain what I mean by the word family members. To me, family members are those who stay with us in the sense our parents, spouse, children and also siblings.
First and foremost, family members are those who understand us the most. When we first come to this wonderful world, the first person who we see is our parents and they are also the one who bring us up. Before we go school, the one who teaches us how to speak and perhaps how to walk and run are our parents especially our housewife mother. Not to mention about all the moral values and virtuous principals in order to survive successfully in this competitive world that taught by both our parent. Just imagine how are we going to survive without those lovely parents when we are just kids? We do not know how to communicate and not even know how to consume rice; our parent will definitely the one who teaches us this entire basic staff. Some might argue that both of their parents are working parents and the one who teaches him or her all these basic survival skills are their grandparents (who I shall consider them as the family members) or the nurseries. Bear in mind, what do our parents do when they left you with your grandparents or at the nursery? For sure they are not hanging around and do nothing. We have to understand that they need to earn a living for the whole family. In this case, they are still play a major role as the bread winners for our family.
Apart from that, family member will never betray us, or I shall put it as they are less likely to do so. As the saying sounds blood is thick than water, it is certain that the probability of our family members to stab our back is much lower than that of a friends. There is once a great author mentioned that if we want to look at what is the perfect love, the love of a mother to her child will do. Moreover, we can observe from what happen around us or may be what had happen to you, there are lots of our ‘friends’ who will not hesitate to backstab others in order to make themselves outweigh the people around them. A friend of mine had once experienced this. He was sick and unable to attend a particular class and he asked one of his so called ‘best friends’ to take notes for him. Unfortunately, what happen was the friend of him do give him notes that are ‘going to come out for the exam’ but it is not the actual notes given by the lecturer on that day. Eventually, my friend failed his exam and his friend obtained full marks for that particular subject. After all, do you still think that friend is the one who we really cannot live without? I, personally stand on the other side of the coin.
Some might claim that health should be considered as the most essential thing in our lives. In addition, it should come before wealth as the saying health is wealth. Without health, one cannot have wealth. One is unable to work if one is in serious illness. Even if he possesses all the best things in the world, without health, he still not able enjoys them. Furthermore, some might claim that without health, one will not have time to spend with their love one and also their family members. On the other hand, I personally agree that health should come before wealth in the sense that without health, wealth is meaningless. However, I stand firm on my point that family member is the thing that we really cannot live without; as in without them, though we own million or trillions of dollars, we will still feel lonely and isolated as there is still nobody to share with us all our dry and wet in lives. No man is an island. Even a healthy person still needs someone to walk with him or her throughout his or her live. In this case, family members will be the best choice as in they are those will share with us whatever we possesses outmost sincerely.
In a nutshell, I would like to restate that family members are those we cannot afford to lose in order to lead a meaningful life. Family members are those who know us the most, those who we can really rely on and off course those who will never leave us no matter how bad the condition we are in. What would a life without family members be? I, as an ordinary people, would never like to figure out...
-in retrospect-
meaning:
looking backward or reviewing the past, especially with the advantage of knowing more now than you did then...
looking backward or reviewing the past, especially with the advantage of knowing more now than you did then...
Monday, November 17, 2008
holiday plan..
ermm..
What to do in this precious holiday?
Work? Definitely out of my plan.
After 'fighting' for few months, really need a rest now..
But, i feel that it is simply a waste of time if i just play throughout this holiday..
It is better to do some revision as i am going to take my A-Level next summer.
and of course i will hang out with my old friends..
and visit my secondary school.. teachers and juniors.
haha.. just cannot imagine how they look like now..
and definitely, i will try my best to publish as many posts as possible during this holiday..
i want to keep it as a habit.. ^.^
What to do in this precious holiday?
Work? Definitely out of my plan.
After 'fighting' for few months, really need a rest now..
But, i feel that it is simply a waste of time if i just play throughout this holiday..
It is better to do some revision as i am going to take my A-Level next summer.
and of course i will hang out with my old friends..
and visit my secondary school.. teachers and juniors.
haha.. just cannot imagine how they look like now..
and definitely, i will try my best to publish as many posts as possible during this holiday..
i want to keep it as a habit.. ^.^
third semester...
Finally, my end of semester exam is over.
Really hope that this time i can maintain what i had achieved for last semester.
To sum up my study throughout this semester, generally i think that i did not perform that well this semester. All my results dropped this semester and i did not really prepare for all those tests and quizzes throughout this semester. i had new lecturers this semester and it take time for me to suit their style of teaching. One of the most significant changes is that in semester, i need to find out the concepts that we need to understand for that particular subject instead of all provided by the lecturers which is totally different form the previous semesters. What make thing worst is that i did not revise after lecture for this semester even for those lessons that i did not understand. Really regret now. But i know that it is useless to cry over split milk. What i can do now is PRAY hard. Hopefully i still can get the result that i want this semester.
Really have lots of catch up to do this holiday!
Really hope that this time i can maintain what i had achieved for last semester.
To sum up my study throughout this semester, generally i think that i did not perform that well this semester. All my results dropped this semester and i did not really prepare for all those tests and quizzes throughout this semester. i had new lecturers this semester and it take time for me to suit their style of teaching. One of the most significant changes is that in semester, i need to find out the concepts that we need to understand for that particular subject instead of all provided by the lecturers which is totally different form the previous semesters. What make thing worst is that i did not revise after lecture for this semester even for those lessons that i did not understand. Really regret now. But i know that it is useless to cry over split milk. What i can do now is PRAY hard. Hopefully i still can get the result that i want this semester.
Really have lots of catch up to do this holiday!
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haha.. at last i ｔｏｏｋ IELTS..
Ｔhough the result is not that good, i still feel thankful to those lent me a hand in my preparation. really thanks a lot!
THANK ＹＯＵ！
Ｍａｙ Ｇｏｄ ｂｌｅｓｓ ｙｏｕ ｇｕｙｓ！
Ｉ ｗｉｌｌ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅ ｗｒｉｔｉｎｇ ａｎｄ ｐｕｂｌｉｓｈ ｍｙ ｓｏ ｃａｌｌｅｄ ｅｓｓａｙｓ ｈｅｒｅ．．
ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｈｏｐｅ ｔｈａｔ ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ ｍａｙ ｌｅａｖｅ ａ ｃｏｍｍｅｎｔ ｈｅｒｅ．．
^.^
Ｔhough the result is not that good, i still feel thankful to those lent me a hand in my preparation. really thanks a lot!
THANK ＹＯＵ！
Ｍａｙ Ｇｏｄ ｂｌｅｓｓ ｙｏｕ ｇｕｙｓ！
Ｉ ｗｉｌｌ ｓｔｉｌｌ ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅ ｗｒｉｔｉｎｇ ａｎｄ ｐｕｂｌｉｓｈ ｍｙ ｓｏ ｃａｌｌｅｄ ｅｓｓａｙｓ ｈｅｒｅ．．
ｒｅａｌｌｙ ｈｏｐｅ ｔｈａｔ ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ ｍａｙ ｌｅａｖｅ ａ ｃｏｍｍｅｎｔ ｈｅｒｅ．．
^.^