中了一抢。。。 反省中。。。

haiz get scolded by someone again

maybe it's time to look into the mirror
who am I

只管自家 不管人家
只看好样子 不看坏样子
看一切人都是菩萨 唯我一人实是凡夫

what is done is done
learn from it and don't repeat it again

may all be well and happy always!

9 more days to go...

almost time for new year resolution
so many plans on board for next year
it will be a great one if all can be done as planned

"10,000 Miles" Trailer (Theme Song "Snail" by Jay Chou)

looking forward to this movie




may all be well and happy always!

又 pms 了。。。

当 你很在意一个人的时候
他 所有的一举一动 一言一语
都能够左右你的心情

haiz.. 怎么这感觉又来了。。。

自我催眠

当你不断的重复同一个谎言
或许 你会把自己也骗了
以为那是真的。。。

pending works.. there's always next year ;P

my previous 'New Year Resolution' was...
2010
2011
2012 ??
2013 ??
2014

2015

2016

Friends

need to keep in touch with those i have now
primary school mates and teachers - plan 2017

Work

Clinical
dilution protocol in paeds - plan 2017
bulletin - done first issue
counselling template - plan 2017
drugs in special groups - plan 2017
common drug catalogues - plan 2017
Quit Smoking - MPS Website  - plan 2017

TDM 
hospital tdm handbook - plan 2017
echo training (PF) - plan 2017

R and D
Research 1.0 - poster presentation - done Aug 2016
Research 2.0 - data collection
research 3.0 - plan 2017
research 4.0 - plan 2017

HSA / QA / KIK
HSA 1.0 - plan 2017
QA 1.0 - proposal writing -in process

Sports 
badminton - need to improve my strength and stamina - in process
swimming - learn properly - plan 2017

Spiritual
十善业道经 - plan 2017
佛教徒的信仰 - plan 2017
14th Dhamma Practitioner Camp - Together in Harmony - plan 2017


may all be well and happy always

如果。。。那么。。。

如果，我们注定不能在一起；
那么，为什么又让我遇见你？

may all be well and happy always!

New Year Resolution 2016 part 4

my previous 'New Year Resolution' was...
2010
2011
2012 ??
2013 ??
2014

2015

Family

1. CNY trip - Febraury -done

2. Klang/KL trip - April/May

3. KL trip - October / November

Friends

need to keep in touch with those i have now
primary school mates and teachers - plan 2017
secondary school mates and teachers - done during CNY
preU school mates - done regular meet-ups
Uni mates - done during KZ and JM wedding
PRP mates - done during kursus
Hospital Sik mates - done in Langkawi trip

Work

AMS 
antibiotic policy - version 2 in use
antibiotic awareness week - third week of November - in plan
program kerja 2016 - done Feb 2016

Clinical
hospital formulary - done Jan 2016
dilution protocal - done Jan 2016
dilution protocol in paeds - plan 2017
program kerja 2016 - done Jan 2016
allergy card and ADR reporting (cme PF and MO) - portfolio taken by others
bulletin - done first issue
counselling template - plan 2017
drugs in special groups - plan 2017
common drug catalogues - plan 2017
antibiotic guidelines - done Jan 2016
ECHO training - DMTAC - done June 2016
ECHO training - RMTAC
Quit Smoking - MPS Website  - plan 2017
clinical attachment  - done Aug/Sept 2016

TDM 
hospital overall chart - done second edition july 2016
hospital tdm handbook - plan 2017
echo training (PF) - plan 2017
cme (MO and SN) - done Sept 2016

R and D
Research 1.0 - poster presentation - done Aug 2016
Research 2.0 - data collection
research 3.0 - plan 2017
research 4.0 - plan 2017
program kerja 2016

HSA / QA / KIK
HSA 1.0 - plan 2017
QA 1.0 - proposal writing -in process

MPSPKB/YPC
-world pharmacist day 2016 - in process
-AGM 2016 - in process

Self

Study
too long to list out here one-by-one...

Sports 
badminton - need to improve my strength and stamina - in process
swimming - learn properly - plan 2017
chinese chess - viwawa

Spiritual
十善业道经 - plan 2017
佛教徒的信仰 - plan 2017
14th Dhamma Practitioner Camp - Together in Harmony - plan 2017

Charity
medical camps by Persatuan Medikal Kebajikan - done April 2016
medical camps by Tzu Chi Alor Setar - done 2016

Health - similar to those in 2011 - plan 2017
i. sleep before 11pm everyday.
ii. workout 2 days per week (Sunday and Thursday - Badminton at Sik and Friday with parents)
iii. have 8 hours of sleep per day
iv. exercise twice weekly
v. drink at least 2.0L water daily
vi. be vegetarian during every first and 15th day of the Chinese lunar month
vii. keep fit target weight 58 kg - ???!!! - plan 2017

may all be well and happy always

是，心。。 。动了？ 该，行 。。。动了？

很久 很久
没这种感觉了

常常看着电话
等着简讯的到来

反常的在面子书活跃
只为得到关注

情绪几乎都被反应牢牢控制着
一则简讯 可以高兴好一阵子
稍微迟或没恢复 可让我伤心 心烦气躁

天天想见面
时时刻刻都想制造见面的机会
影子 无时无刻都在脑海里

常想
一年 十年 五十年以后
我们会是怎样。。。

是 心。。 。动了？
该 行 。。。动了？

"接近一股勇氣成形的時候　往往內心卻最軟弱
完成一個選擇決定的時候　往往心中恐懼最多
我心中有兩個我　常常都在爭鬥
遊走在現實和理想的兩頭　眼看著天都亮了

我和堅強握手　我又和矛盾碰頭　因為有夢就在前頭
想要追逐天際的彩虹　又怕希望終究會落空　心動了　忍不住的我

我和從前分手　我又和冒險碰頭　因為地球不停轉動
癡癡望著你柔柔眼眸　傻傻看著你淺淺笑容　心動了　忍不住的我　心動了

將來你會像現在的我　歷經歡喜悲傷　為了愛瘋狂　為了情神傷
將來你會像現在的我　要作很多選擇　為了夢心動　為矛盾無措"


may all be well and happy always

汪洋中的一条sampan

hmm... not long ago..
i know what i want to do in years to come
i had my own short-term and long-term goals
for my work.. for my hobbies.. and for my relationship..

but.. now.. i am lost
just like a sampan in the middle of ocean
duno where to go

i need a lighthouse
i need the Big Dipper
for me to sail
to my ultimate destination...

may all be well and happy always

Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One

幸福 是。。。

幸福
是。。。
当你爱的人
也一样爱你 。。。？？

我。。。 喜欢你
你。。。 可不可以也刚好喜欢我？



may all be well and happy always

love is blind

hmm..

all this while, i thought i can't live without a

but when b came into my life, i realised that a is not everything in my life

and now, it is the prime time to let a goes as a's wish

this may be the best outcome for both a and me

to me, my relationship with a is like the best relationship shown in the picture..

i will always support a forever :D

and tell a everything as promised

always be there

hmm.. b ??

i think i have a crush on b

but... will b accept me in the end and be my first and only ONE?

hmm... 

may all be well and happy always

someone and the one

i have been waiting for the one
looking for the one
chasing after the one
for so long..
so long...
so long until i forget..
when did i started and who is the one..

you sent someone to me,
but... is it the one?

someone is needed to ease the pain
but the one is needed to remove the pain

i am ready for the one?
i am not sure

i know
i know the one will only appear if i am ready
but.. how to get ready?
i am tired
i am exhausted
please show me the way for the one

may all be well and happy always

like or love

at some point in your life, you will realise that..

If you like a flower, you will pick it and bring it home..
If you love a flower, you will water it and let it grow..

may all be well and happy always! :)

Review New Year Resolution 2016 part 3/6

my previous 'New Year Resolution' was...
2010
2011
2012 ??
2013 ??
2014

2015

Family

1. CNY trip - Febraury -done

2. Klang/KL trip - April/May

3. KL trip - October / November

Friends

need to keep in touch with those i have now
primary school mates and teachers
secondary school mates and teachers - done during CNY
preU school mates - done regular meet-ups
Uni mates - done during KZ and JM wedding
PRP mates - done during kursus
Hospital Sik mates - in plan

Work

AMS 
antibiotic policy - done
antibiotic awareness week - third week of November
program kerja 2016 - done Feb 2016

Clinical
hospital formulary - done Jan 2016
dilution protocal - done Jan 2016
dilution protocol in paeds 
program kerja 2016 - done Jan 2016
allergy card and ADR reporting (cme PF and MO) - portfolio taken by others
bulletin - starting April 2016
counselling template
drugs in special groups
common drug catalogues
antibiotic guidelines - done Jan 2016
ECHO training - DMTAC - done June 2016
ECHO training - RMTAC
Quit Smoking - MPS Website
clinical attachment Aug/Sept

TDM 
hospital overall chart - done second edition july 2016
hospital tdm handbook
echo training (PF)
cme (MO and SN)

R and D
Research 1.0 - poster presentation
Research 2.0 - data collection
research 3.0
research 4.0
program kerja 2016

HSA / QA / KIK
HSA 1.0
QA 1.0 - proposal writing

MPSPKB/YPC
-world pharmacist day 2016
-AGM 2016

Self

Study
too long to list out here one-by-one...

Sports 
badminton - need to improve my strength and stamina
swimming - learn properly
chinese chess - viwawa

Spiritual
十善业道经
佛教徒的信仰
14th Dhamma Practitioner Camp - Together in Harmony


Charity
medical camps by Persatuan Medikal Kebajikan - done April 2016
medical camps by Tzu Chi Alor Setar - done

Health - similar to those in 2011
i. sleep before 11pm everyday.
ii. workout 2 days per week (Sunday and Thursday - Badminton at Sik and Friday with parents)
iii. have 8 hours of sleep per day
iv. exercise twice weekly
v. drink at least 2.0L water daily
vi. be vegetarian during every first and 15th day of the Chinese lunar month
vii. keep fit target weight 58 kg - ???!!!

may all be well and happy always

first ever research poster presentation

recently did my first-ever research poster presentation
a big THANK YOU to all my teammates, my colleagues, my seniors, my family and friends.

though I didn't win any prize, yet the important part is this has reminded me a lot of things

• Low-profile
• Accomplish or do not begin
• Perservarence
• 莫忘初衷
• 学如逆水行舟 不进则退

photo from: http://verifiedforskolin.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/05/baby-steps.jpg

and got to know something new

In the new world, it is not the big fish which eats the small fish. It is the fast fish which eats the slow fish. - Klaus Schwab  

may all be well and happy always

prize for quiz at kursus

finally i got a prize for answering question at kursus Toxicology and Toxinology
although everyone answer together but i raised my hand fastest
i was thinking everyone will raise together *face palm*
here's the prize..

A travel mug from NovoSeven

May all be well and happy always

羽球 我曾经热爱的运动

羽球

我 曾经 热爱的运动

渐渐的 年纪大了

体力明显的下滑

技术并未提升

步伐也不再灵活

一直成为拍档的包袱

也许 我 该放弃了

祝福大家 幸福安康

it's time to restart my engine

date for clinical attachment is set
hohoho

it's time to start studying
hopefully can finish on time

aaarrrggghhh
平时不烧香
临时抱佛脚

add oil !!!

may all be well and happy always

excuse for fattening dinner

woke up in pool of sweat after a nap of about 30 minutes

ideal situation: study at KFC Sik without eating

de fact @.@

when to Kedai 1 Malaysia after reading a few pages.. hahaha..

buy one free one promotion..
but.. hmmm.. nice or not one??? 

may all be well and happy always

thank you

i always feel that whenever i need something or someone
they will come to me in time

i was very stress today
lots of works to settle at the same time
then my friends noticed that and brought me to SP for dinner (reached home around 10:15pm)
even though she is going to Terengganu tomorrow early morning..

i am very thankful for all the helps that came in time
thank You ^^

TEA BOSS @ Sungai Pertani
nice glass noodle seafood salad small bowl
nice mash potato (not in picture)
personally don't like the drink that much

may all be well and happy always

累了.. 感情?

在一段感情
爱情也好 友情也罢
单方面付出久了 是会累的

放弃
不是因为不再在乎
而是因为累了

或许 是爱得不够
或许 是疼得不足

可能放下
是最后的选择
也是唯一的出路

对你 对我 对他
都好


may all be well and happy always

Review New Year Resolution 2016 part 2/6

my previous 'New Year Resolution' was...
2010
2011
2012 ??
2013 ??
2014

2015

Family

1. CNY trip - Febraury -done

2. Klang/KL trip - April/May

3. KL trip - November

Friends

need to keep in touch with those i have now
primary school mates and teachers
secondary school mates and teachers - done during CNY
preU school mates 
Uni mates 
PRP mates - done during kursus
Hospital Sik mates

Work

AMS
antibiotic policy - done
antibiotic awareness week - third week of November
program kerja 2016 - done Feb 2016

Clinical
hospital formulary - done Jan 2016
dilution protocal - done Jan 2016
dilution protocol in paeds 
program kerja 2016 - done Jan 2016
allergy card and ADR reporting (cme PF and MO)
bulletin - starting April 2016
counselling template
drugs in special groups
common drug catalogues
antibiotic guidelines - done Jan 2016
ECHO training - DMTAC
ECHO training - RMTAC
Quit Smoking - MPS Website
clinical attachment July/Aug

TDM 
hospital overall chart
hospital tdm handbook
echo training (PF)
cme (MO and SN)

R and D
Research 1.0 - data analysis
Research 2.0 - data collection
research 3.0
research 4.0
program kerja 2016

HSA / QA / KIK
HSA 1.0
QA 1.0

MPSPKB/YPC

Self

Study
too long to list out here one-by-one...

Sports 
badminton - need to improve my strength and stamina (currently enjoy playing with the locals at Sik)
swimming - learn properly
chinese chess - viwawa

Spiritual
十善业道经
佛教徒的信仰
14th Dhamma Practitioner Camp - Together in Harmony


Charity
medical camps by Persatuan Medikal Kebajikan - done April 2016
medical camps by Tzu Chi Alor Setar

Health - similar to those in 2011
i. sleep before 11pm everyday.
ii. workout 2 days per week (Sunday and Thursday - Badminton at Sik and Friday with parents)
iii. have 8 hours of sleep per day
iv. exercise twice weekly
v. drink at least 2.0L water daily
vi. be vegetarian during every first and 15th day of the Chinese lunar month
vii. keep fit target weight 58 kg 


happy new year and  may all be well and happy always

随缘，但不随便

随缘，但 不随便；
不强求，尽力就好。


may all be well and happy always

愿意 付出

很多时候
我 不知道
何时才是对的时间
什么才是对的事
谁才是对的人

只希望
身边的每一个人都能
开开心心的
平平安安的
健健康康的

为了 他 她 它
我 愿意 付出
我 愿意 牺牲

感恩 我 所拥有的一切
虽然 我 知道这一切不会永恒
但 我 会珍惜 现在

感恩

祝福大家

may all be well and happy always

Review New Year Resolution 2016 part 1/6

my previous 'New Year Resolution' was...
2010
2011
2012 ??
2013 ??
2014

2015

Family

1. CNY trip - Febraury -done

2. Klang/KL trip - April/May

3. KL trip - November

Friends

need to keep in touch with those i have now
primary school mates and teachers
secondary school mates and teachers
preU school mates
Uni mates 
PRP mates
Hospital Sik mates

Work

AMS
antibiotic policy - done
antibiotic awareness week - third week of November
program kerja 2016 - 

Clinical
hospital formulary - done Jan 2016
dilution protocal - done Jan 2016
program kerja 2016 - 
allergy card and ADR reporting (cme PF and MO)
bulletin
counselling template
drugs in special groups
common drug catalogues
antibiotic guidelines - done Jan 2016
ECHO training - DMTAC
ECHO training - RMTAC
Quit Smoking - MPS Website

TDM 
overall chart
tdm handbook
echo training (PF)
cme (MO and SN)

R and D
Research 1.0 - data analysis
Research 2.0 - NMRR
research 3.0
research 4.0
program kerja 2016

HSA
HSA 1.0

MPSPKB/YPC

Self

Study
too long to list out here one-by-one...

Sports 
badminton - need to improve my strength and stamina (currently enjoy playing with the locals at Sik)
swimming - learn properly
chinese chess - viwawa

Spiritual
十善业道经
佛教徒的信仰
14th Dhamma Practitioner Camp - Together in Harmony


Charity
medical camps by Persatuan Medikal Kebajikan
medical camps by Tzu Chi Alor Setar

Health - similar to those in 2011
i. sleep before 11pm everyday.
ii. workout 2 days per week (Sunday and Thursday - Badminton at Sik and Friday with parents)
iii. have 8 hours of sleep per day
iv. exercise twice weekly
v. drink at least 2.0L water daily
vi. be vegetarian during every first and 15th day of the Chinese lunar month
vii. keep fit target weight 58 kg 


happy new year and  may all be well and happy always

power bank

got a new power bank from brother
PINENG PN-966

thank you
^^


may all be well and happy always

new phone HuaWei Y5

got a new phone
on 23.1.2016
HuaWei Y5
rm330 with 8Gb SD card

it will accompany me for a few years from now
^^

btw, my old phone revive and is with my mom now
thank you :D


may all be well and happy always

here comes the karma

scolded a patient yesterday
and now
today
here comes the karma

samsung galaxy Y
my phone dropped into a pail
and it died..
after serving for about 3.5 years..

sad...

anyway
looking at a bright side
it's time for a new phone
for a new beginning


may all be well and happy always

scolded a patient

for the first time in my working life
while talking to a patient
i raised my voice so high that i stunned the whole ward
everyone turned around and looked at me
...i felt so guilty for doing so...

yesterday was the first day
a friend of mine who is going to be a clinical pharmacist at female ward
following me for ward round
she was trained at different hospital than mine

since there were 6 patients who need MDI counselling on that day
we decided to counsel 3 patients each
so that we can learn from each other regarding the counselling points

it counselling session started with me
i counselled an elderly, patient A
he seemed to understand yet he performed poorly
hence, we decided to counsel the patient next to him, patient B
with the intention to ask patient B to demonstrate the correct technique.

so, my friend counselled patient B
doctor ordered MDI Salbutamol 2p PRN
and MDI Berodual 2p TDS for him, a newly diagnosed COPD patient
who is a chronic smoker (daun)

here starts the story...

at first patient B was very cooperative
then after my friend done with the counselling
and asked him to demonstrate by taking 1p of MDI Salbutamol
as this is the SOP

patient B kept repeating the steps as told verbally
and refuse to take actual dose as directed
my friend tried to persuade him to do so, yet she failed
hence, i tried to persuade him as well
after trying a few times, i failed too

i asked him for the reason
and he said he only want to use the meds when required.
now he felt that he is well, so he don't want to use the MDI
he is worried that he addicted or need to rely on the MDI
i further explained to him that the MDI Berodual for maintenance therapy
is to keep the airway open.. yet, he refused..

after explaining to him and trying to persuade him for so many times,
i decided to try the hard way.. haha
i raised my voice so loud that everyone in the ward was stunned and stared at me
"PAK CIK UBAT INI (MDI Berodual) PERLU GUNA SETIAP HARI.. TAK KIRA PENAT ATAU TAK PENAT.. PAK CIK KENA GUNA JUGAK.. UNTUK ELAKKAN PAK CIK PENAT KERAP..YANG BIRU NI.. PAK CIK GUNA BILA PERLU JE.. PAK CIK PAHAM TAK? "
"faham.. tapi pak cik nak guna bila perlu sahaja.. bukan tak mau guna.."
"PAK CIK.. PAK CIK KENA PAHAM.. UBAT PUTIH NI UNTUK ELAKKAN PAK CIK JADI PENAT KERAP SANGGAT."
"faham.. bila pak cik penat sangat.. barulah pak cik guna pam ni.."
hmm.. hard way was not going to work anyway.. hence, i decreased my voice..
"ok.. kalau macam tu.. saya simpan balik yang putih ni.. pak cik guna yang biru ni je.."
"pak cik nak guna dua2 jugak bila pak cik rasa penat sangat.. sekarang tak penat.. pak cik tak mau guna dulu"
"tak boleh.. kalau macam tu saya habak kat doktor pak cik tak mau guna yg putih.. buat masa ni.. pak cik guna yang biru je noh.. lain kali kalau pak cik kerap masuk wad.. barulah kami bagi yg putih tu.. ok tak?"
"pak cik nak guna dua2 jugak.. bukan tak mau guna.."
"pak cik.. yang putih tu kena guna tiap2 hari.. kami bagi hak biru tu je buat masa ni.."
and this continued for a few more times..

i turned around and walked to my doctor
when i was about to explain to him what happened
he said "tak perlu cakap.. saya faham dah.. kalau pt tak mau.. tak payah bagi dah.."
and he off the MDI Berodual

after that i insisted that patient B need to demonstrate it
and he did so...
apparently lots of mist came out from his mouth and the inhaler
my friend and i further counselled him, yet he failed
hence, we decided to counsel him the next day..

the patient grandson witnessed the whole incidence..
i explained to him what happened and he just nodded

my friend said that she will be more fierce than me if she need to 'scold' a patient
she didn't think that i actually scolded him
just talked louder only..

anyway
moral of the story..
if soft way doesn't work
the hard way might not work too
figure out why before using the hard way...

there's no point crying over the split milk
i cut my hair that night
hoping that it will be a new beginning tomorrow

now, it's the high time to polish my counselling skill and of course EQ
might need a meditation class??

may all be well and happy always